Getting Clear

When I first read Joe Vitale's book, "The Attractor Factor", I made a commitment to learn it chapter by chapter, page by page and word by word. I read it over and over several times. I bought the audio version and listened to it costantly, whenever I was in the car, at home with free time, even when out and about with my mp3 player.



It wasn't long before I knew I had to dig deeper into the clearing part as feelings of anxiety and doubt would almost overwhelm me at times when I would start doing some of the exercises about making intentions or setting goals. As Joe said when he wanted his first car.....he got a tremendous headache until he started to unravel the strings of negative beliefs and doubts.



While listening to Joe and the unraveling each piece of string, I was thinking of a baseball as a kid when we used to unwind the strings whenever a cover would come off.



When I first started the process of getting clear, I dove into it headfirst. Nothing that Joe had mentioned was working. I went back to the book and looked up the chapters dealing with clearing and found several names of folks that helped him. Bill Ferguson was one, and since he lived here in Houston, I bought his book "Healing The Hurts That Sabotage Your Life". I then bought the audio version and again, listened and learned. Each time I listened, It became more and more apparent that I had some deep feelings that I needed to uncover. After about 6 months of pulling one string after another, I had pulled enough to cover a large softball. I signed up to go to Bill's "Return To The Heart" Seminar to see if I could get in touch with my deepest fears and doubts. Again, more layers of strings but still I had those anxious feelings and beliefs involving money and self worth. From there I got a copy of Mandy Evans book, "Emotional Options" and then signed up with several other websites including Carol Tuttle, Joan Sotkins, Joe Rubino, and others that dealt with money issues.



One issue that finally came to light was the fear of the stock market that I inherited from my father who was afraid of investing in the stock market. I related investing in the Stock Market to all investing and the mention of the word investing became a taboo word in my subconscious as it was trying to protect me.



That led to the uncovering of related fear brought on by a bible verse I heard as a child about the Land owner that gave his servants lots to invest. One he gave only 1 lot and another he gave 2 lots, and another he gave 4 lots. While the preacher was telling the story he was very discriptive and used very graphic words to illustrate his points so after praising the first two servants he came to the last servant and related how that servant had taken his lot, and being fearful of losing it, he just buried it. Having already developed a slight fear of investing, I thought that might not be a bad idea. But when the preacher started in telling how the Land Owner had described the last servant as being a worthless, and no good, It put a fear in me that I buried as I had made the same decision as the servant.



Wow, when this finally came to light, what a revelation it was and released an entirely different outlook on life. What a change in mindset. I have been using he EFT method of clearing for sometime now and what a difference it makes. I intend to continue my education in this field ultimately want to be not only a practitioner, but also become certified to help others and even teach it to other practitioners.



More later